So after my last post, DH and I went to the grocery store.  That lifted my mood tremendously.  It's baffling how I can be so down one minute and then so up the next.  I got my beer (Blue Moon) and got a nice little buzz that night that made falling asleep oh so much easier.

Yesterday was a pretty good day.  We spent it doing a lot of nothing. 

Today however, is another bad day.  I guess it's because of Christmas coming up.  I'm trying so hard to get into the holiday spirit.  I haven't done any Christmas shopping.  NONE.  Everyone is getting homemade gifts.  Our church is doing a special service this Sunday night that I really want to go to.  Here's a link to some info about it: http://storage.cloversites.com/firstpresbyterianchurch4/documents/LongestNtflyer.pdf

Basically, the flyer says: What if Christmas is not so merry? A Holiday Service of Remembrance,Consolation
and Assurance.  It's been a long and disappointing year.  Had we been able to conceive when we started our ttc journey, we would have a one year old by now.  (I foolishly looked up what my due date would have been the first month we tried and it was Christmas Eve).  As the months wore on and nothing was happening I kept telling myself that for sure I would be pregnant by my mom's wedding which was over Thanksgiving weekend.  Still nothing. 

I don't know what the next year is going to bring, and honestly I'm not looking that far ahead right now.  I'm just focusing on making it through the holidays without going crazy.