It's official

We have decided to go with the agency that we met with on Monday.  That was quick, I know.

We had a great meeting and then at home after work we discussed some more and DH still didn't seem like he was all that committed even though he liked the agency.

On Tuesday I wrote him an email just laying it all out there.  I told him that when he brought up the adoption plans he had given me hope that I haven't had in a while.  Then, when he started hemming and hawing it started sending me in a downward spiral.  I'm tired of being in limbo.  I can't live like that anymore.  We need to either take the plunge into adoption, do our embryo transfer, or move on.  So I told him to shit or get off the pot.  Not literally of course, but he got what I meant.

And here we are.  We're working on our application to the agency.  We've decided who we want to write our letters of reference (we need 6!!!!).  We're coming up with fundraiser ideas.  I even started an official blog (you know, where I have to be nice and not bitch about anyone).

I'm not sure how I'm going to move forward with the two different blogs.  The "official" blog will have all of the detailed updates on how the process is going, mainly for family and friends to stay updated.

I'm sure I'll still have a use for this blog for the stupid shit people say.

For example today.  We went to the police department to get our fingerprints done.  The guy doing them was nice enough.  DH mentioned that we're adopting and he asked where from.  I told him domestic.  He replied, "good".  It wasn't a, "that's so great you're adopting 'good'", but more of a judgey, "good that you're adopting from this country because we need to take care of our own before providing charity to foreign countries 'good'".  He didn't come out and say it though so I kept my mouth shut.  It's entirely possible I was just reading too much into it.  I'm just letting it roll off my back though.  I'm sure everyone will have an opinion that they will feel the need to tell me.  It's amazing how people think that their opinion matters and that our decisions, be it IVF, adoption, child-free or whatever are any of their business.

So that's our update.  Let me know if you want the link to the blog.  Or if you click on my blogger profile you can find it that way (this one is hidden).